There is an issue I have been struggling with. The details really aren't important, but what is important is that I have been struggling with it for a while. I decided to really bring it before the Lord...again. I was reading the Bible this morning in 1 Cor. 2 and I was getting a lot out of it. It's a passage I've read many times but I was enlightened in a new way today. The funny thing is, I really didn't see how it had anything to do with the burden I've been carrying. So of course I informed the Lord of this, ya know, like "Yeah this is really good God but what does it have to do with my 'stuff'" HAH! Picture me informing HIM of what He needs to teach ME. Anyway, He very gently and lovingly whispers to my heart that my "stuff" isn't even on His radar. "Radar," that's the word that was impressed on my heart. This thing I've asked for forgiveness for countless times and has been weighing me down isn't even on His radar? How can that be? It has seemed so big to me, so terrible, has made me feel like a bad person and yet it's not even on His radar? Near weeping I thank Him for bringing me to this scripture:
1 Cor 2 NIV:
7 ...we declare God’s wisdom, a mystery that has been hidden and that God destined for our glory before time began. 8 None of the rulers of this age understood it, for if they had, they would not have crucified the Lord of glory. 9 However, as it is written:
“What no eye has seen,
what no ear has heard,
and what no human mind has conceived”
the things God has prepared for those who love him—
10 these are the things God has revealed to us by his Spirit.
The Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God. 11 For who knows a person’s thoughts except their own spirit within them? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God. 12 What we have received is not the spirit of the world, but the Spirit who is from God, so that we may understand what God has freely given us. 13 This is what we speak, not in words taught us by human wisdom but in words taught by the Spirit, explaining spiritual realities with Spirit-taught words. 14 The person without the Spirit does not accept the things that come from the Spirit of God but considers them foolishness, and cannot understand them because they are discerned only through the Spirit. 15 The person with the Spirit makes judgments about all things, but such a person is not subject to merely human judgments, 16 for,
“Who has known the mind of the Lord
so as to instruct him?”
But we have the mind of Christ.
I've been dealing with a lie that keeps crawling into my brain but the truth is I have the mind of Christ. Not because I'm some super "christian" but because I have received the Spirit that is from God. The Spirit that knows the deep things of Him, that speaks to me, not in words taught by humans, but in words taught by the Spirit, explaining spiritual realities. Even though my mind has not seen, or heard, or conceived what God has for me, the one who loves Him, the Spirit has and He lives in me. These insignificant issues I have not been letting go of, that have been weighing me down with fear and insecurity, that have made me feel like less of a "christian" aren't even on His radar. I am not one of those people who considers the things of God foolish. I am, at least, starting to understand what He has given me freely. His love. His forgiveness. His mercy. His compassion. Wisdom. His Spirit. A mind like His. And the list goes on. Don't let anything get in the way of what He has given you. Nothing is more significant to God then your relationship with Him. If I went to my best friend apologizing over and over for the same thing even though she forgave me the first time I believe she would finally say to me "Katie, that's not even an issue, it's not even on my radar."
Being loved by Him isn't something I should have to work at receiving. I don't have to do anything to be good enough. I have, and know these things because I have His Spirit.
Now something that blows my mind? What is on His radar? When I think of radar I think of that little screen on submarines you see in the movies. You know, with the little blinking dot, beep, beep? How many miles does that cover? I guess if you think in terms like that, His radar would be the whole world? What about abstract things like the hearts of all mankind, world peace? That thought could make me feel really small in comparison but how awesome is it that with literally the whole world on His mind His thoughts are for me? And YOU.