"You don't give Your heart in pieces....You don't hide Yourself to tease us."
This song, Pieces by Amanda Cook, has been wrecking me lately. And when I heard it this Sunday during worship I felt His whisper on my heart, "I never meant for you (all of us) to live in pieces either."
What if we really started believing that when God sent His son, Jesus, to the earth to die...? What if we really started believing that when Jesus said YES to laying down His life for us...? What if we believed that ALL of that was JUST so we could have relationship with Him? What if we truly believed that He wants to speak to us, that He gave it all and continues to give us all and that He's not withholding anything or any of Himself? Because why would He do that to hide? Why would he do that to stay silent? "You don't give Your heart in pieces..." If you believe that then know He never intended for any of us to live in pieces either.
The Lord is near to the brokenhearted
And saves those who are crushed in spirit.
(Psalm 34:18 NASB)
(Psalm 34:18 NASB)
But maybe you've felt like I once did, justified in feeling broken. Maybe you aren't ready to let go of hurt or disappointment. Or Anger. Resentment. Fear. Worry. Maybe you're not ready to forgive and let go and move on. Or maybe you've felt that freedom just wasn't for you. That this was your thorn, your cross to carry. Maybe it's not even possible.
I'll tell you what He told me. He said, "I never waste a yes. No matter how late. Or how small."
No matter how great or lacking your faith may be, no matter how hopeless or helpless you may feel...He never wastes a yes. A simple surrender, no matter how late or how small. He can use. Maybe you can't say today, "I'm all in, have your way, take it all." But maybe you can say you're willing to be made willing. He loves that. He loves those prayers.
Can a nation be brought forth all at once?
“Shall I bring to the point of birth and not give delivery?” says the .
(Issaiah 66:8-9 NASB)
So offer all you can. It doesn't have to be all or nothing.
Let Him be on the journey with you. Say yes where you can. The path will get lighter, my friend and one day the sun will shine.